The Good And The Bad

This week has been a real mix of really good moments, the ones you want to remember forever and some really bad ones the ones I wish I could erase. For example John, who has been completely potty trained for months now, suddenly is fighting his bowel movements. I know he has to go, he knows he has to go, but when I ask him he says no. If I try and make him he just sits there, for an entire 15 minutes one time and wont go. Needless to say twice now I have ended up cleaning a NASTY mess because someone couldn't hold it any longer, and the second time I lost it. I said things that hurt his feelings, I yelled and threatened to put him in diapers again, and put my crying boy in his bed an walked away. I was frustrated and angry, and reacted from those feelings and now feel guilty. I went back upstairs and held him,told him I was sorry and that I loved him. I wish I could go back and handle the situation differently,but I can't. I can only move forward and do all that I can to show my boy how proud he makes me, and just how much I love him, and if faced with the situation again I'll learn from my mistakes and handle it like I should have in the first place.
Thankfully there have been many more good moments than bad. Moments like this! When Aaron gets home from work we usually eat dinner right away and then after dinner he spends the next 45 minutes to an hour playing with the kids while I clean the kitchen.
They do puzzles, play hide and seek, wrestle, build towers or whatever else the kids can think up. On this particular night I decided to forgo the dishes so I could watch and try to capture these moments, ones I never want to forget. Have I mentioned how much I love my husband lately. He has no idea the way it makes my heart swell watching him interact with our children. They adore him, and you can tell by the smiles on their faces, and by the giggles and the screeches that can be heard across the house when they have his undivided attention.
I know that after working all day, that some days he would rather come home to a quiet house and be able to sit and relax. But he puts forth the effort almost every night to spend that time with kids, and he'll never know just how much that means to me, and them!
From the time I start making dinner until we are finished eating all John does talk about all the things he and daddy are going to do that night, and just look at how much Audrey adores her daddy, and tell me it doesn't make you smile:) I am so blessed to have such beautiful children, and an amazing man as their father!

There has also been many adorable John & Audrey playing (not fighting) together moments this week. They fight a lot, and sometimes I don't know how much more I can take. But then there are moments like this and I know that it's all worth it, and I would do it all over again.